Hard.

It's holidays. But. yeah.my holiday seems not to be like wht im expected it to be. i feel terrible. severe. fool. everything. I didn't mean to hurt Anyone. yes. i didn't mean it. i just want to fix everything. I AM sorry. But please. i would rather stay away from hurting Your feelings. And I AM sorry too. I just can't forget about the past. My past storyline was VERY PAINFUL. Seriously. It has changed everything, my feelings, my behavior, and I will not even SILENT to protect my pride. I knew i was a fool before. It was not my fault. and now, when i hv the right to express my feelings, things change and ppl are blaming on me for being rude, selfish. Please. I really didn't mean it. I REALLY want to be happy. I DONT want to feel uneasy about something tht make me thinking all days and night ergh ! PLEASE. PLEASE :'( i really can't. I want to stop everything now. yes. Now. Please don't put anymore pressure on me. please. i'm tired. helpless. lifeless ='( My silent is always be Your excuse to persuade me. No. It hs no influenced on me. I'm a strong girl now. Strong inside. and tht make everything looks perfect even it is NOT. I just feel like crying, but i hv no one now =( Not to disturb both yana and nana. they are too busy with exams. but yeah. it's OKAY. i knew someone out there will at least care about me, and i should appreciate tht :') Say No To Crying Fain ! =)))