a big smile for myself :)

I feel very sad. i've been crying out of nothing and i'm searching for the right path for myself. I seriously hate arguing and i just want some happiness :'( oh my God, until when should YOU give me these kind of HARDSHIP. i'm tired of it. I've fail in Loves so many times and I don't know wht should i do. i don't know why things didn't seems to be right, so i Assume there's something wrong with me. maybe i care about my love too much, and they just get annoyed. idk. Boys are always 'using' me :) and thts why it hurts :')  "thank you" so much for all this things. but, believe me, I'll always forgive everything. no hard feelings, seriously :) just please. leave me alone. YOU know my weaknesses, just don't let it be worst. I just wanna be happy Just once, for myself :') tq.